Sunday, May 14, 2006

Alter Egos and shades of infinte darkness

Everyone has an image that they construe about themselves. Though sometimes in actual fact that image may not fit the physical self exactly. Whats more this image can be quite flexible and its always on a "polymorph" mode. Yes, our alter egos. Like a disc changer, swapping discs according to the situation. And sometimes when the changer fails, the disc hops around and there's this "stuck in between" oddball ego.

Most of the time i feel that my changer isnt working as well as i like it to. And sometimes i confuse myself with "identity crisis". However, that term is no longer applicable for someone past the borders of adolescence. So i decided to settle for the term "alter egos", which seem slightly more apt.

Consistency in characters and personalities can forge a level of familiarity amongst friends and even family members. However, haphazard likes of it can spell catastrophe. Imagine schizophrenics or PMS-striken mood swing monsters rampaging before you who have taken the appearance of someone you know. Scary... Imagine a while ago, your friend was just laughing at your joke and the next, he wields a 10-foot chopper and threaten to hack you to pieces, thinking you are his childhood nemesis.

Exaggerations aside, alter egos do manifest however subtle it may be. Sometimes, we wake up feeling really motivated and positive so much so that we start doing things that on normal days we would normally procrastinate. Likewise, there will be days when you just dont give a shit about the world and adopt this nonchalant and super bo-chap attitude. Ever wonder what it would be like if your alter ego had dominated your personality? How would the present you differ?