Coughing fits

Until the day I die by Story of the Year

Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you, for you
Until the day I die
I'll spill my heart for you
As years go by
I race the clock with you
But if you died right now
You know that I'd die to
I'd die too
You remind me of the times
When I knew who I was (I was)
But still the second hand will catch us
Like it always does
We'll make the same mistakes
I'll take the fall for you
I hope you need this now
Cause I know I still do
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you
Should I bite my tongue?
Until blood soaks my shirt
We'll never fall apart
Tell me why this hurts so much
My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
But still we'll say, "remember when"Just like we always do
Just like we always do
Until the day I die (Until the day I die)
I'll spill my heart for you

Can someone slit my throat open and remove the feather tingling against my insides? The cough is so stubborn that it just wouldnt go away even with suppressants like strepsills and pi pa gao. My chinese new year is such a tormenting experience. Dazing at the goodies on the table just makes things worse while i have to fight all desires to grab a piece of bak gua. The next moment i will be coughing in fits. Like a trigger to hold me back from the heaty food. Sometimes the fits last like for 5 secs and all that runs in my head are "until the day i die...i spill my heart for you...". Seriously, its no big deal. Just coughing and no other annoying symptoms like fever, runny nose. But the coughing is good enough to wreak my chest. It feels like I've just ran a thousand miles; breathless and feeble. All that weight on my lungs just worries and wears me out as i think about the long-awaited chance coming this saturday. Is it going to happen or am i just going to let this weekend pass by as i waste away in convalescence?

Am i asking too much? All i want is another weekend of bliss. I've exchanged health for a weekened of fun, unity, friendship and satisfaction. I wont take memories like these for granted. It will be locked in the safest part of my brain. Just one more weekend of bliss. Make it happen.